So, my approach for this conversation tomorrow is that this was one of the managers that was on my list to talk with as part of my "what does Amy want to be when she grows up" series of visits. And really, that's what I want to get a feel for. Would a job in that group (which would require relocation and travel) be something that would suit me. And what skills does he think help make someone in that position successful.
I worked on a pro-con list some last night. I also wrote down a few questions for myself in addition to the ones I want to ask this manager: Why am I feeling antsy right now? Why am I feeling like I should be looking for my next move? What's my motivation for looking into this job? All very good things to be asking myself.
On some level, I think I am feeling similar to what I felt 8 months after moving to the Quad Cities. I graduated college, went to work in OK, 8 months later got laid off. Moved back to Houston, started working for Hitachi, 8 months later I was getting relocated to here. So, 8 months after moving to the Quad Cities, I kept waiting for some big major change. Which never came and I was OK. But I remember feeling antsy and anxious and feeling like I should be preparing for big news or something. Well, I worked in the Hitachi division for 3 years. I worked at the Training Center for about 3 years. Here I am coming up on 3 years in my current job and I'm feeling antsy again.
Some days I say, "I don't want to do undercarriage the rest of my life." But really, if I did, I would be OK with that. I like it. There are enough variables that things are different every day and I am still challenged by this job I have right now. I make enough money to live very comfortably...so I start to wonder if it's ego. And I also wonder just what do I want to do in my career. I don't really have a 10 or 15 year plan. Hell, I barely have a 1 year plan. Do I want to be some big manager? Shit, I don't know. I am pretty damn happy where I am now. I work on different project teams, I get to do things that are interesting, I get to work with dealers and customers, and If I kept making what I make now, for the rest of my life, I'd be doing pretty damn well for myself.
When I started looking at that, and started writing down my pro's and con's, I really think I wound up figuring out that I am happy where I am. That I want to finish my MBA at Iowa. That I want to keep my dog and my little house. Ultimately, I think I don't need another big life changing thing to happen. Changing jobs and still being in the same place with my same support group would be one thing. But changing jobs and doing that in a place where I know no one would be more than I think I could handle right now.
So, I am still going to talk to this guy tomorrow, but it will be more of a conversation about deciding if a TSM job is the kind of field job that I would like, and would I be good at, or would I want a different kind of field job some day. And, he's a good guy to ask about other things I might not be thinking of where I can still work closely with dealers and customers...because that's what I really like about my jobs so far, working with dealers and customers. "I'm a people person, DAMNIT!!"
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Yes you are a people person...I hope you get your MBA, because I think it might be valuable down the road in some unsuspected adventure for you...I agree, that unless something sweet and amazing comes about with a field position, big changes of any nature might not be best at this time, UNLESS, something gigantic and stupendous and incredible is offered, in the people person field...you networker you...:)
Like your mom said, big changes might not be the best thing right now. You just went through the divorce, which is a big enough change.
And hell, maybe the shit that Holly and Starling are going through is really making you look at your life with a fine-toothed comb. I know it is for me. Every day I look at that little girl and think about everything all of us have been given and take for granted.
So, look at your life, evaluate things, and if what you're doing is working and it makes you happy, stick with it. And finish that MBA! :)
Missy, I think you are on to something there. It's making me look at what I have and why can't I be happy with what I have, it's pretty damn good, actually.
I'd say you have it pretty damn good. But I'm not you...:)
So Missy,
have we met? if not, we gotta meet, gal! ditto on the ruby site...I have to get my fix on her photos and updates before I go to work each day...I feel that if Holly and Chris can face this with the strength and honesty that the blog presents, then there is nothing that I can't tackle at work that day...yep, we should all be grateful for the life we live each day...truly is precious...Amy, I love that you too are writing about your plans and I think online journaling like this could be very therapeutic? I get to hear about your thoughts even when we are unable to talk. It's a good way to think out loud almost. Ruby's photos today made me think, "okay dammit, let me off these things and get me fixed so I can go home with my mommy and daddy!" Such a fighter she is. Again, so glad she is at that hospital, where it appears they have the best chance scenario for a happy family outcome.
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