I'm a cry baby. We all know this. We have known this for a very long time. Lately, it's just been the eyes welling up sad sort of cry. Not the sobs of 6 to 12 months ago.
Aside from the crying in the bathroom on Saturday, it was a good class. We talked a lot about self-awareness. The whole idea of what you can and cannot control. Which I have to say, I am all about the serenity prayer these days...well, I have been for the longest time, but really in the last two years. When things were really bad, I would just say that over and over to myself in the car on my way home from work. It helped remind me that I can't control other people or their actions. I can only control myself and my reactions. Sometimes that's easier said than done.
It was interesting to see how other people in the class handled that. I don't want to judge...there are some people who clearly "got it" and others that you can tell are still in the full on wanting to control what someone else does. Don't get me wrong, I try to control other people, but I know better. I'm still not to the point where I never try to - no one is perfect. I do catch myself sooner than I used to.
We also talked about responsibility and integrity. I liked the idea that we choose what we are responsible for. That I am responsible for the things that I think are important to me. That I can choose not to be responsible for something that isn't important to me.
I left class Saturday afternoon feeling pretty good. It's about knowing who you are and what you value and choosing to do something about it.
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"I liked the idea that we choose what we are responsible for. That I am responsible for the things that I think are important to me. That I can choose not to be responsible for something that isn't important to me."
Amen. This is really hard for me.
Another thing that's really hard for me, and you're probably this way is my guess, is trying to be perfect. My therapist said to me, "Dare to be average".
I think the key is that in everything in life, you need some moderation.
Sounds like a great class. Hope you're doing better these days.
Oh, and my word verification for this comment? "squiso" Ha!
squiso sounds like "Quidgibo"
Oh, I'm not very good at the whole being OK with just being average. It takes me FOREVER to paint a room because I want it JUST right. And many other examples.
That's why you're so hard on yourself, girl!
So yeah, dare to be average. Seriously.
Congrats on the good grade in class!
yay, SEESTER! nice work on the grade and let's GIVE ourselves a break this xmas. it's the season of GIVING afterall, so i think that a self-given gift we can benefit from is allowing ourselves to have a free-pass for taking care of ourselves! can't wait to see you in 10 days :) xoxo!
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